What Assumptions Have You Made Today? October 17, 2007
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I am sitting at my computer writing this post, when my heart tells me to paint today. I know what I want, but my head thinks it’s not logical. Hmmm. Logic. What is logical? My head does not know what will happen a minute from now, nor tomorrow, nor a year from now, and even less five years from now. My head can only make assumptions. Like right now, since I am sitting at my computer writing this post, I assume that in about five minutes from now, I will be publishing it, then returning to working on a Web site I am designing. What if I choose something different in five minutes? What if I choose to listen to my heart, let go and just paint. I don’t know what I will choose to do in five minutes. I only know what I choose NOW. So any time we try to ‘figure out’ the consequences to a choice we make, we make an assumption. So many other choices can come into play in the future, whether in a minute, a day, a year or a decade, that can change these consequences. Our choices guide our life, stear it in a particular direction, but we can never really know how our lives will turn out.
That’s when our instincts come in handy. Our instincts tell us what we truly want and need, from deep within ourselves. Our head has a tendancy to judge our choices. For example, if I think about painting right now, my head is telling me “Are you kidding me? You have that Web site to finish. Someone might see your painting and think it sucks. Are you willing to take that chance? Plus, you risk nothing by sitting here at your computer, you’re safe.”
… Wow, my head said all that? Blah. How annoying is that! Do I want to be ’safe’ all my life? What is safe? Not facing people and their opinions? Having money? Not being myself? Not being happy? Yuk.
If I think about painting right now, my gut says “GO!”, because it knows that painting makes me feel alive, it brings out my true self, and makes me happy. If I am happy and feel alive, then I can concentrate better on that Web site I need to finish. :-)
In conclusion, just follow your gut, not your head.
What is Fear? October 14, 2007
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Fear is the emotional response to believing one is not good enough.
The world’s constant search for perfection… “Am I good enough?” is engrained in most people often because of one event or sentence that was said in their past. It is engrained so deep in the body that it is usually not even consciously brought up. The body automatically reacts to situations in fear because of that deep thought.
Think of every time you have been scared and you will find that the very root of this feeling is believing you are not good enough. You can change that… you just have to choose to change it.
Next Step — Don’t Be Scared October 1, 2007
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I met with this amazing person last night, who taught me how not to be scared. My latest posts were worrying me, thinking I was writing that I needed to be scared to keep moving forward. So I asked the Universe for help. There it was last night. Am I ever so grateful! It is the first time I feel like I do today. I feel like I am living in a different body. I don’t feel like my stomach will burst out. The fear butterflies I used to have have been replaced by exciting butterflies. Happy butterflies.
I have reached a new chapter and this is only the beginning.
So please disregard most of what I have written in the past week or two about fear. If you are scared to move forward, ask for help, it will be there.
Much love.
What Are You Afraid Of? September 26, 2007
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I feel like writing today. I don’t know about what. I just feel I need to write. I will just write from the heart.
I am scared. I realised that my channelled message from six days ago came from within. I am scared. As I have already written about in previous posts, I feel I am meant to do something big, huge. I feel I am meant to inspire people, to motivate them to follow their instincts to accomplish what they were born to do. But I don’t feel like I will be doing this at a small scale.
I am scared. Scared of many things. I am trusting that I am on the right path, I feel like I am on the right path. But I am still scared. I have gone through many things in the past years that have been a preparation for whatever is coming up. Things I can’t explain; some events even felt like a dream. I have changed so much. No, I haven’t changed, I have discovered who I am. I found my soul.
I am scared. I don’t want to be scared. But I know that I need to be. That is what is keeping me grounded. As long as I am scared, I know I am headed in the right direction. I just have to keep going. I don’t know where I am headed, but I choose to be excited about it. My gut is telling me it will be absolutely fantastic. It already is. And I have learned to trust it — my gut that is. My head does not know a thing. Not really. Only theories, assumptions that don’t help me one bit.
We do not live in other people’s bodies; we don’t know how they have truly lived their lives. We can only love them, and understand that whatever is going on on the outside is a direct consequence to every single event and emotion they have experienced in the past – most often related to fear. Our world is scary, but it will never change if we continue to let fear get in the way.
I love you, and I sincerely hope you will choose to face your fears.
Other Quotes of The Month September 20, 2007
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Ok, so I’m looking at all these great quotes and I can’t wait for next month to post them.
Life is 1% what happens to you and 99% how you respond to it.
– Chuck Swindoll
I saw the angel in the marble and carved until I set him free.
– Michelangelo
Creativity is essentially a lonely art. An even lonelier struggle. To some a blessing. To others a curse. It is in reality the ability to reach inside yourself and drag forth from your very soul an idea.
– Lou Dorfsman
How’s Self-employment Life? August 22, 2007
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I quit my government job on June 30, 2007, already with a few Web design contracts in hand. Enough to support me for a bit. Plus, I will be getting money from leaving the gov. as a backup if I need it — later though, in a few months.
First week of July, I find myself working as a volunteer production coordinator on a great play. I worked like a dog – and I absolutely loved it! Wow! It felt great. Of course, I worked on my contracts at the same time, so it was 18 hour days for me. Now, the show is over. Back to full-time graphic and Web design. I love graphic design. But right now, most of my big contracts are government contracts with hardly no graphic design to do. It’s basically back to what I used to be doing. I can charge more, but what’s the point if it’s not what I want to do? I have been taking these contracts in fear of not having enough money next month, or the month after.
What’s this doing to me? I am sick. I am sad. I feel like I am turning away from my true path. All these contracts are taking so much time that they are preventing me from doing the work I am meant to do. I want to work on art related projects. I want to act. I want to write screenplays. I want to paint. I need to. That’s my true path. That’s what makes me feel complete. I feel empty right now.
I am working on one very interesting project at the moment, but even that one I find myself pushing the deadline to its limit because of other contracts. Enough.
I consider this to be the first lesson in my new life. I want to help people listen to their instincts to help them follow their path. To do that I need to do it myself, I need to be an example.
There are 2 contracts I have not yet signed. I won’t.
I entered a 7-day screenwritting challenge. I have to write a feature film in 7 days. Having already started one, I thought this was a great idea to stop my procrastination. But when I am getting sick trying to manage everything all at once, it’s not worth it. I also found myself writing nonsense just to finish it. I will finish my script, just not for Friday — for next week 
I will finish my painting that has been sitting there for months. It’s my painting of Diana and her two sons. I have been wondering why I needed to paint that. For the past few weeks, I have been noticing it more that usual. I have to finish it. Yesterday, I read a magazine article – next week is the 10th anniversary of her death.
I already feel better having written this post. It’s like a contract with myself to not take on any more contracts I don’t want.
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Update - Sept. 18, 2007
I finished my painting of Diana, plus I painted 5 more canvases. I am moving along really well with my screenplay! I even have trouble taking breaks from writing.
